Yes Hi Adulthood

I just resigned last week from my work and currently applying to different companies. Feeling unsatisfied and lazy in school is something, but feeling the same in work is a totally different story. Quitting in work has far more consequences that does not affect you only in the short-run but for a long time as well. I just hope I’ll be able to find work ASAP because it’s hard to be broke and shiz.


I just turned 21 last Thursday. I used to get excited whenever my birthday approaches but this year, it felt like an ordinary day. I am grateful for my friends and loved one for making me feel special for my day but I am still not as excited as I used to. Probably because once you get old and realize that you need to work for yourself and for the future, you tend to be more focused on doing it. Once you reach your twenties, you are more oriented in fixing your life and what’s ahead.

So for y’all still under 20s, enjoy life as much as you can. I am not saying that being in your 20s will make you only do serious stuff; you still get to enjoy and all. But 20s, for me personally, is that time when you start doing things that must benefit you for long, long periods.

Early Morning Craving

Just a clarification: not pregnant. Nope.

I’m just stuck here in front of the laptop when suddenly I start craving for a burger. I miss having BBB’s 3 cheese explosion which I think will forever be my favorite!

(Photo not mine. Credits to the owner.)

I miss how the cheese just oozes with ever bite I take! Yum. And with the size of the regular burgers here in the Philippines, BBB’s are definitely a treat. Also, with its very affordable price, it really made me want it more and more.

Any other recommendations for good and affordable burgers?

If only I’ll be less of a lazy ass and more vocal of what I want to do or achieve… Maybe.. Maybe.. UGH. I want a lot of things, but I am doing not a single sht to achieve it.

Damn. Sucks.

Happy Is The Heart That Still Feels Pain

Admit it.

Whether we want to or not, pain will always be a part of our life. For without it, life ceases to exist. Being incapable of feeling pain does not make you any stronger; it only shows that you have been defeated. We have to accept that we need to undergo such feelings, to move forward. One cannot avoid it forever; but one must also not feel it forever.


4 na taon.

Sa loob ng apat na taon ay naramdaman kong hindi ko alam kung saan ako patutungo. One failure after another, ganyan ang naging buhay ko. Tanggap ko na sa sarili ko na hindi ko matatapos ang kolehiyo sa loob ng apat na taon. Kinundisyon ko na ang utak ko na tanggapin na para akong ligaw na kaluluwa, hindi alam kung ano ba ang naghihintay sakin. O kung may naghihintay nga bang maganda para sa akin.

Sa kolehiyo ko natikman ang una kong bagsak sa buong buhay ko, at nasundan pa yun na marami-rami pa. Laking pagsisisi ko sa pinasok kong kurso, Accountancy. Kung sana ba naman e sinunod ko ang gusto kong mag-PolSci e baka mas naging maayos pa buhay ko.

Pero eto ako ngayon, inaantay ang pagsapit ng 10 Mayo. Eto ako ngayon, nag umpisa na mag-trabaho bago pa man ako makapag martsa.

My college life would be the best stage of my life. I am saying this not because it is full of joy and happiness, but because it is during this time that I have learned a lot of valuable lessons in my life: things that I may have taken for granted before.

Sa mga naging parte nang aking pagiging Tomasino, maraming salamat. Sa pamantasang ito ko natikman ang mga malulupit na failures ng buhay ko, pero masaya akong naranasan ko ang mga iyon.

Sa aking pinakamamahal na paaralan, FEU Diliman, maraming maraming salamat. No joke na masaya akong naging bahagi ng institusyong ito. Ako mismo ay hindi ko inasahan na magiging masaya ang panunuluyan ko dito sa loob ng 2 taon.

Sa mga professors (special mention kay Ma’am Bunuan, Ma’am Espiritu at Sir Cruel), classmates, FM majors, at lahat-lahat nang mga naging kaibigan ko sa FERN, thank you! Kung hindi dahil sa oras at tulong niyo (alam na this hahaha), di ko matatapos ang kursong ito.

Sa mga magulang at kapatid ko, thank you po. Alam kong napakatigas ng ulo ko at hindi mapapantayan ang pagiging pasaway ko. Pero tyinaga niyo parin ako at hindi niyo ako sinukuan. Sa dinami-dami nang maling nagawa ko, andyan parin kayo para sa akin. Thank you po and I love you.

At higit sa lahat, ang kaisa-isang rason kung bakit ako nandito. Ang rason na natapos ko ang kurso ko ngayon. Siya na sa lahat-lahat nang nangyari sa akin ay alam kong hindi ako iniwan, na patuloy akong minahal. Siya na sa araw-araw ay biyaya at grasya Niya ang pumupuno sa akin. Lord God, I thank You for the grace You have blessed me with. Without You Lord, this would have been impossible.

20120709 Roque, Lovely Monica Pajuyo
Bachelor of Science in Business Administration
Major in Financial Management, Batch 2014
Far Eastern University - Diliman